Bitch Time

It is 4:40am. I'm awake. I HATE not having nursing half the week. I am the one that stays up all night long because Blaine works(no problem here - it makes the most sense). What does that mean exactly? It means getting a whopping 5-6 hours of sleep in 72 hours. It means having my sleep schedule royally screwed on the nights we do have nursing (BTW - we have a nurse tonight). It leads to exhaustion. And sleeping for almost 24 hours in a row. You heard me. I felt like I was getting a cold on Monday and Tuesday. I woke up Wednesday unable to breathe and with a wicked headache. Blaine stayed home. I slept from 3:00am-7:00am, 7:30am-3:00pm, 6:00pm-9:00pm, 11:30pm-11:00am. 22 out of 28 possible hours. And guess what? I'm still tired and don't feel well. I want to sleep. I want to get back to sleeping when I am supposed to. But I can't sleep the nights we have a nurse and expect to stay awake the nights I'm needed. My body doesn't work like that. We have a fill-in coming this weekend (her normal patient is in the hospital) and maybe next weekend but no more than that. Do I take the chance? Can my body handle a switch back to normal and then back to screwy? When oh when we will have nursing 7 nights a week again? I miss my sleep. I need my sleep. Just ask my husband.